Baby I Love Your Way

As I posted on my Facebook status, I'm dreaming about bridges, which means my brain is dealing with transitions once again. Even when I've thought it's over, it ain't over. I fell again - and it's not a bad thing, just unexpected. I think the last time was preparation for this time. Okay, all the other times were leading to this - just like the job I have. Let me elaborate on that job thing. In the past I've had quite a few different jobs - from McDonald's to the frame shop. And I believe that each job has taught me something about work, people and myself. And the sum total of what I've gained can be applied in my present job. So I'm comparing that phenomena with my relationships. I've learned a lot (been burned a lot - and done my share of burning) and now I can apply those lessons learned. I am infinitely more patient (believe it or not) and more tolerant. I am still obsessive and fairly demanding, but I've found someone who can put up with me, who complements me - and compliments me - and we seem to fit so well together. We've discussed my tendency to bulldoze and be impulsive, but she is strong enough not to be run over and level-headed enough to counter my impulsivity. Every day is revealed some aspect of our relationship that works so well; I am marveled by it. And the most marvelous part of it is that the love is reciprocated and we can talk about all of this. I haven't scared her (well, maybe a little), bored her, turned her off, chased her away.
Is there a down side? Well, there are challenges and the fact of being in a relationship at all is complicated, even a good one (a wonderful one). Compromises, irritants, obligations. It's easier to be alone and to make up my own rules and routines. Just like laying on the couch watching TV is easier than socializing - but infinitely less satisfying. Easy does it does not mean do what's easy. Life only grows when we put ourselves to the test, take risks, push ourselves, learn, fail, move forward.
Okay, this all sounds trite again. My writing is melodramatic and that is part of what keeps me from writing. I have said before that whatever I want to say someone has said it before and better than I could. It's part of why I like to read quotations. Once again it's about words. Our thoughts, our worldview, who we are is influenced by the words we have, the words we use to describe, to express, to connect.
Time to meet the electrician. Hope the words you hear today are kind, and your thoughts good ones.